A storm of emptiness

 










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All she wants is just being herself

All she wants is just stop being someone that people always want her to be

Where’s that chance?

They thought it’s been given to her long time ago

They thought she’s being herself by earning those grades

They thought she needs it to be okay

When it comes to approval, she failed herself, badly

The support system becomes death

She wants to say something, but she got nothing to say

There’s no other intention, except to get rid of the expectations

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